Lonely :/

So like I was talking about yesterday...currently all I have to talk to is..well, myself, my mom(who's actually started sewing and is rather ignoring me right now) and my dog. :(

I have practically 3 days off, though tomorrow doesn't fully count due to midnight to 4am, but I can still hang out.

:<

seriously...I spent most of yesterday sleeping, in my room or on the computer and even on the computer I really didn't talk to anyone.

Is this how most 20 year olds spend their life? Work themselves to death, then finally on their day off spend it alone?

I've called all the people I know locally...it's either work or they wont return my call.

Bill is texting me right now...but he's really sick..and I feel bad because he doesn't handle being sick that well.
I mean I feel selfish that I really wish he was able to come hang out with me, I miss him, I haven't seen him much in the past few weeks...but at the same time I really wish he would feel better.

I feel like all I do anymore is work...work and then come home. Do nothing, sleep and do the same the over the next day
even my days off I feel miserable like I've been at work all day.
So far today...I've slept, watched tv, took a shower and folded clothes and now I'm typing this.
This is all I've done today...and it's now 4:06pm...and that's all I've done.

I thought having friends that weren't in school anymore would be great...but now it seems that we have no time for each other at this point.
Either I'm working an 11 hour shift or they work til midnight or something like that...

Maybe after I move to a larger city things would be different...I wouldn't have the same friends...that's going to be hard.
wont have the loving boyfriend close at all...he'll be states away...maybe even in a different country.





I am a lonely soul.